Last month I had a great run of shows. I did 20 minutes at the BackBar, then did a few other shows that went really well, and I felt super confident. This month has been different. I’ve been trying some new jokes, but my lack of confidence in them has affected my performances. I did BackBar on tuesday and fumbled through jokes, and lost the crowd early on. Jokes that normally do really well failed. I could blame the audience, but my lack of success that night was all me. I performed at LOL last night and the same thing happened. Early on I lost confidence telling jokes I know front and back. I was actually unable to finish two jokes because words didn’t come out of my mouth, just gibberish. I played it off best I could, but it was weird. I felt like that reporter who due to the effects of a migraine couldn’t form words. I don’t know what happened. I’ve been pretty dehydrated lately, so I might be able to chalk it up to that, but I’m sure lack of confidence in my material didn’t help either. Last night after my set I came home and read this interesting article on io9 about a study which claims
I think from a comics perspective this article is great. Self doubt is for losers. From now on I’m gonna deliver every joke old or new with the utmost confidence. And I’m gonna drink more water to avoid any potential mini-strokes on stage.
A few weeks ago I had the opportunity to be a part of a really fun Stand-up show! The line up included some of my favorite local comics in one of my favorite venues, Kings Barcade. I’ve been wanting to do a show there for a long time, and I illustrated the poster for it, so I was super excited!
Two minutes into my set there was a giant clap of lighting which killed the mic. I immediately yelled “I’m bringing down the house!” and kept rollin with the show. Once there was no amplification the crowd was all mine, fully engaged and supportive. That was a great feeling, it was one of the best times I’ve ever had performing. The sound guys at kings got the mic back up in 4.5 mins and I did 8 more mins after that.
The majority of the shows I do are in Carrboro, Chapel Hill, and Clayton NC, so it was good to a great show with a great crowd in my home town. All the comics killed it.
Which is worse? Being a douche and not realizing it, or being a douche who is self aware? Each has their own set of problems. Luckily my friend and fellow comedian Tyler Meznarich has written a post that will allow the blissfully ignorant get to self loathing personal reflection in 14 steps. I’ve been guilty of 3 douchey moves, but I won’t be anymore.