Last night I was feeling crappy about my performance at Goodnights. The crowd was an ok size but for some reason I wasn’t connecting in the 5 minutes I was on stage. I think it’s because I’m often too worried about what people think of me, especially when it comes to my jokes on stage. I often censor myself because I feel people won’t get me, or think I’m weird. Afterwards I was talking with my friend Adam Cohen and he and I came to the conclusion that I just needed to stop giving a fuck about what people thought of me. We discussed how I should start doing new all or 90% new material every time I get up stop worrying about having to get laughs. I just need to be myself, that’s when I’m funniest.
This morning I woke up and a comedian, Gretchen Mcneely, who I met last night had added me on facebook, and the first post I see of hers is a blog post by Julien Smith about how to not give a fuck. It’s a great little post, and speaks volumes to how I’m feeling about my comedy right now. It’s amazing to me how often the universe lets you know you are on the right path.
Last month I had a great run of shows. I did 20 minutes at the BackBar, then did a few other shows that went really well, and I felt super confident. This month has been different. I’ve been trying some new jokes, but my lack of confidence in them has affected my performances. I did BackBar on tuesday and fumbled through jokes, and lost the crowd early on. Jokes that normally do really well failed. I could blame the audience, but my lack of success that night was all me. I performed at LOL last night and the same thing happened. Early on I lost confidence telling jokes I know front and back. I was actually unable to finish two jokes because words didn’t come out of my mouth, just gibberish. I played it off best I could, but it was weird. I felt like that reporter who due to the effects of a migraine couldn’t form words. I don’t know what happened. I’ve been pretty dehydrated lately, so I might be able to chalk it up to that, but I’m sure lack of confidence in my material didn’t help either. Last night after my set I came home and read this interesting article on io9 about a study which claims
I think from a comics perspective this article is great. Self doubt is for losers. From now on I’m gonna deliver every joke old or new with the utmost confidence. And I’m gonna drink more water to avoid any potential mini-strokes on stage.
A few weeks ago I had the opportunity to be a part of a really fun Stand-up show! The line up included some of my favorite local comics in one of my favorite venues, Kings Barcade. I’ve been wanting to do a show there for a long time, and I illustrated the poster for it, so I was super excited!
Two minutes into my set there was a giant clap of lighting which killed the mic. I immediately yelled “I’m bringing down the house!” and kept rollin with the show. Once there was no amplification the crowd was all mine, fully engaged and supportive. That was a great feeling, it was one of the best times I’ve ever had performing. The sound guys at kings got the mic back up in 4.5 mins and I did 8 more mins after that.
The majority of the shows I do are in Carrboro, Chapel Hill, and Clayton NC, so it was good to a great show with a great crowd in my home town. All the comics killed it.