Last night I was feeling crappy about my performance at Goodnights. The crowd was an ok size but for some reason I wasn’t connecting in the 5 minutes I was on stage. I think it’s because I’m often too worried about what people think of me, especially when it comes to my jokes on stage. I often censor myself because I feel people won’t get me, or think I’m weird. Afterwards I was talking with my friend Adam Cohen and he and I came to the conclusion that I just needed to stop giving a fuck about what people thought of me. We discussed how I should start doing new all or 90% new material every time I get up stop worrying about having to get laughs. I just need to be myself, that’s when I’m funniest.
This morning I woke up and a comedian, Gretchen Mcneely, who I met last night had added me on facebook, and the first post I see of hers is a blog post by Julien Smith about how to not give a fuck. It’s a great little post, and speaks volumes to how I’m feeling about my comedy right now. It’s amazing to me how often the universe lets you know you are on the right path.